Got talked into blogging once again ha, I always forget about it. I'm driven this time though, I have soooo many goals. I'm in love with reaching them, if that makes any sense. I am so excited for 2012 it's ridiculous.
SO A FEW THINGS
1. I am moving back home in the next three days (Yes, I was only gone almost 3 months) 2. I am going to start selling pre-season for Vivint 3. GUESS WHAT I GOT FOR CHRISTMAS?!! Ha, everyone already knows 4. Guess what else I got?? A MICROPHONE!! Now we can make music! YAY 5. I will soon find out where I will be living this summer, hopefully making a little bit of extra money 6. I want a new car, that is a brand new goal as of today, my car was struggling back from St. George 7. Once I get back... I am either moving to New York, or France ha, haven't really decided yet!
CRAZY I KNOW
Who do I think I am??
I am Danyel F-n Snow
I can do whatever I want, and no one will stop me:)
I am seriously so excited, and I noticed something the other day that I had never really paid attention to.
People, telling their success stories, always talk about how people told them they would never amount to anything, or that their ideas were crazy, and then they took that and proved them wrong! Well I never have anyone telling me I can't do something, in fact, I have the opposite! If the whole world thinks I can do something... what in the hell am I doing telling myself I can't?? Geez.... I am done being afraid, or thinking something is too hard, is too far away, or out of reach. Seriously I have the whole world in my hands, and I need to take advantage of that!! Anyways, pretty much everyone should come to this realization, because it's incredible. So plan on hearing from me a lot more often!!
“Life’s tragedy is that we get old too soon and wise too late.”
- Benjamin Franklin
Yes, it's true. We do. Smart and wise are two very different things. I am honestly blessed to have been surrounded by very wise people for many years of my life now. I now have worked as a CNA at an alzheimer's unit for three months. It's the absolute worst disease in the world. You have your health and strength... but you can't, no matter how hard you try, control it. Can you imagine not being able to express yourself? No wonder they are agitated all the time; plus the simplest things you and I do everyday every second, are a struggle for them. It's rough. The poor things could be abused, neglected, or hurt, and you would never know it. It knows no age either, it can happen to anyone. We have a 58 year old:(
The most genuine compliment you will ever get, is one from an alzheimer's sufferer.
I don't know why I just went off on that, probably because it's all I do anymore ha. I love it though. Never a dull moment. It's a blessing to be able to work doing something that actually makes a difference, whether people know it or not. It's the most satisfying job. Guess I just wanted to show a little gratitude.
Well I know I always say this, but it has been a long time since I've blogged again. I work so much, and then I sleep when I get home because I crash from all the energy drinks I drink everyday.
I GOTTA QUIT THAT
Good news is, someone inspired me. I don't even remember what it actually said, but something Jordan Brown posted on his pinterest said something about how being succesful has to do with how hard you are willing to work.... I know we've heard quotes like this all the time, but then I thought about how good Jordan really is at what he does. He really does work wayyyy hard. So I've tried to apply this to a few things I want to do. Yes I want to build assisted living homes and I want to build a reception, but everyone knows I want to sing. The thing is I don't have any way to make music. So I FORCED myself to practice the one song on the guitar all the time... and I can pretty much play it without looking now! Oh and that makes learning more... WAY more exciting now. I'm dying. I'm actually gonna make this happen. Mikayla is in... Ashli might just be a little too sarcastic and doubting, but hopefully she will see the vision soon!! I've got a goal to actually write, sing, record a song by the end of this month... and it might happen! Really I would rather do this than anything else in the ENTIRE world.
FYI I just started tweeting ha. DORK I know, well actually the world thinks that's pretty cool, kind of dorky that it took me this long to start though. Apparently at one time I started a tumblr too, ha and now I am updating my blog. WHOA I'm on one ha. Gotta connect with people somehow right? Why not ten different ways ha. LOVE IT.
LOVE THESE, Thank you PINTEREST:)
Just watch;)
SIEZE THE HELL OUT OF TODAY, why not?
Wish I remembered to do this everyday, it changes your perspective on everything
TOTALLY STOLE THIS FROM MY LITTLE SISTERS BLOG, she wrote it; I like it though, mostly the way she wrote it out. I thought it was pretty cool.
I've kind of had a rough couple of weeks too, and usually when I blog I somehow manage to inspire myself so I thought now was the time!
I see nothing. Or else I see everything empty. Empty Roads. Empty Houses. Bare Trees. Airless Balloons. Peopleless Churches. Sad looking really. I walk alone on this Avenue of Shattered Hopes, there are abandoned cars that line the streets where smiling faces used to fill the air, now there is no one smiling, no one hugging, no one kissing, just empty streets. Empty fields. Empty barns. Empty faces of people I've never seen. Children looking to the skies. They see birds. Hundreds of them. Thousands of them. They're flying away. I wish I could fly away too, To somewhere new. Where people love, and care for each other, and share their time with one another, as families, and as friends. Where we join hands as a people. We stand as ONE. Where smiles are shown, and emotions are shared, and feelings mean something.But NO. I see sad faces and Jukeboxes. . . . . No longer playing. PUNCHED WALLS. and Smashed guitars. and emptiness.
-Mikayla Snow
THEN.... something we all know, Taylor Swift is a genius. I seriously admire that she has the guts to say what the rest of us pretend we don't think. Everything she writes, we can all relate to. It's amazing. So I decided to post some of her lyrics, quotes, etc.. that I found.
THIS IS JUST A COOL QUOTE AND PICTURE.
AND, I know I said this before, but I actually have been practicing the guitar again. I have a goal to spend at least 20 minutes on it each day. I am slow, that's my biggest problem. I have a hard time switching from note to note. I will get it though, when I tell myself I'm gonna practice for an hour, I get overwhelmed, so I am going for a much more reasonable goal ha. Once I start to get okay at it though, it will all be downhill. I like to be the best ha, right now I'm just stuck on the frustrating part. Plus I love singing to it! I know one song and I love to sing it over and over again. It's finally getting exciting!
I will blog more again I promise. Things are all coming back together now! I know I've said that before, but really this time. They all sort of fell apart for a while!
Okay, so I think I'm pretty safe in saying I have a job!! Ha, I've officially worked three shifts, which makes me an actual employee at Alta Ridge Alzheimers!! It feels so good, it will be a hell of a time catching up with money though. CA didn't treat me too well when it comes to that. I will get there though, I just wish I could work more! Honestly I've missed working. A lot. My first day my back ached so much, I seriously thought I wasn't going to be able to hack it. I proved myself though, I have a hall that I am assigned to, and they told me they were only gonna train me two days, then I was on my own... because of my work experience ha.... trusting I know. However, I'd like to say I did great, I did everything I was supposed to and more:) I took an extra shift the day after, and was pretty nervous about it, because I was all on my own, and I rocked it ha.
I love it
I already have fallen in love with so many people, and I just can't wait to make a difference. It's definitely my passion, and
I've sure missed it.
Another funny little sidenote, Taylor Weiland and I went to Bastille a few weeks back, and I turned in an application. They said they weren't hiring, but they would take my resume in case they needed someone. So this last week Taylor and I hung out and she said she got an e-mail from Bastille saying that she was to call in for an interview. Ha, but she never applied... luckily she was with me so that she could tell me. Turns out that when Taylor and I were in CA together, we had put both of our resumes in the same little box. I somehow grabbed her resume without noticing and turned it in ha. So today I forwarded them the message and attached my resume. Just kind of funny that things like that can happen ha. It would be awesome to work there a few nights a week too though.
Also, I want to be a redbull girl... more than anything pretty much ha. It seriously just sounds like so much fun. So today Brian told me that the redbull girls came into his work and he asked them how to become one, they said you just go online and if there is a job opening, that is where you apply. So I did. Ha I didn't realize it was like a legit job though, ha oh well. If it is supposed to be I will figure it out ha. I seriously just want to carry one of those big fat redbull cans on my back. I can't think of a better job, doesn't hurt that Ashli and I are both obsessed with redbull as it is:)
I guess maybe I can start planning again now. I have always made plans, but lately things have been so out of my hands that I've had to just let things happen and deal with it. I'm not complaining at all either. I'm actually really grateful! I haven't really had these challenges in the past, and like they say, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and it certainly does!! I have been so moneywise the last three months!! I have never been that way in my life, guess I needed this after all ha. Good thing I have a great family, and awesome friends that make it a whole lot easier.
My mom has this quote in our house: "When you have nothing left but god, you become aware that god is enough"
LOVE IT
And................
DIET COKE IS NOT LONGER IN CONTROL OF MY BODY
and I've never been more happy about anything!!!
I'm finally free ha
I now run on strictly water and lemonade:)
and it feels great
You guys, I have not cried except once (good reason) in I don't know how long. I know they say sometimes it's good to cry, but in all honesty, it is GREAT NOT to cry. I love that there is a plan for me, and that I have that little filter that helps me to see the positive in things. I just always have to remember that:)
<3
This is probably one of my absolute favorite quotes, there are a lot that kind of say the same thing, but none that are so simply put. I hope to leave some kind of legacy someday:)
This kind of goes a long with the last one
I know I already put this on my facebook, but I can't get enough of it. If I could be one human being in the world, I would be her. Seriously? Justin Bieber, HELLO. Plus I wouldn't hate being this pretty!
I must be on a Disney kick too, this will probably get old fast, but I just love songs with so much emotion, and this one takes the cake.
I just had to tell someone... I am pretty sure I've got a job... I don't want to speak too soon... already had my hopes up twice... but I'm on the schedule so that's a good sign I think!! Ha but how exciting is that!!!?? YAY!! I'm seriously doing backflips right now!!
It's in Hollady, and that's perfect because it's near enough to SLC, and also close enough to Draper/Sandy (which is where I am moving) that I can still be close to my family! Seriously all my prayers have been answered!! This is obviously the reason that I didn't get that other job. Three days is all it took! Aww I am so blessed and so grateful for this. I can't even explain!
Plus I just talked to Jentri and she goes to SLCC and works up at the hospital in Murray and she totally wants to move up there too! Now I just have to save a little bit of money. Might be hard since all my money I make will either go to bills or the gas to get me to and from work haha! I seriously don't even care. I will not eat for a month if that's what it takes. I'm just super grateful.
And to show my gratitude, I've decided I am not kissing a boy until I have been to the temple. I am dead serious about this too. I want that more than anything. I visited the Draper temple (my favorite) today for the first time since I've been home, and it just made me want it so much all over again. I don't know why I get lazy and let things that are so important to me, get put on the back burner.
I SWEAR ON MY LIFE I AM DOING THIS.
I cannot even wait.
SO YEAH.
ha
OH AND I FOUND THESE CUTE QUOTES... NOT SUPER RELEVANT THOUGH
I GUESS THIS ONE CAN BE SOMEWHAT RELEVANT HA
(about the kissing I mean)
And I like this one because I really do live by it. I just love how simple it is, but it's powerful. Really, it doesn't matter what you are doing, as long as you're giving it your all, unless you're a murderer or something sketchy like that.... then you should probably not be good at it.
Anyways.... still pretty boring I know, but I was stoked and had to put it out there!
Okay So I have not blogged in a really long time; since I've moved home.
I have just been having TOO much fun.
It doesn't help that for some reason my MAC charger decided to stop working either. I can't even upload pictures! I borrowed Brian's when he was home, but now he is in freaking CANADA and definitely can't borrow it from him there. So I'm sorry this blogpost will be fairly boring, I didn't think people really read my blog, but there were 26 views today, and around that many each day, so I guess for the few people that do check up on me, I owe you an apology! I really do enjoy blogging, and I feel like now that things are finally settling down, I will probably be posting more often!!
Small update:
It's crazy when you look back at trials and they have suddenly become blessings. I have been SOOO stressed out, worrying about finding a job, almost mad that I was leaving every weekend, doing family stuff, limiting the time I had to search for a job, but now I realize there is a reason that job lead me on so long! I got to do so many of our family vacations that I've missed the past 4-5 YEARS!!
I seriously LOVE my family.
I'm obsessed.
I legitimately have THEE coolest family!
We bicker, we fight, we SCREAM and YELL, but we love each other so much. We would do anything for each other, and I can't believe how much I've missed these past few years working... so I could buy clothes... or go on vacations with friends. I feel somehow I've grown up a bit; realized that Utah is my home, where I belong. I want to stay as close to my family as possible!
forever.
I value that so much more than I ever have! I really am so grateful for everything they do for me!
And my friends..... Ha. I have the greatest friends ever. I smile the ENTIRE time I am with them. I don't even care who I end up hanging out with at the end of the night because I ONLY have such good ones! They kill me, they're entertaining, they're there for me, they're supportive, they're helpful, they're genuinely good people. I just can't believe how blessed I am! Really it makes me want to cry when I remember to count my blessings. I hate when I feel sorry for myself, but I am grateful that I get that way sometimes because it reminds me of what I do have.
SO THANKS GUYS.
EVERYONE.
I mean it.
Next
I have some weird emotions lately, and I HATE them. I hate when I feel a certain way, and no matter how hard I try to not think about it, or forget it, I have no control over it. Just things that have happened, that I wish I could change, or people in my life that are leaving and I don't want them to leave. It's just been a roller coaster. Even more so for my mom. Sometimes I wish I had a time machine, other times I wish I could stop time completely. I guess that's what life is about though. Moving on, changing, progressing.. etc. I just haven't ever felt like so many things around me were completely out of my hands. It's all just chance now. I guess maybe I should be happy that for so much of my life, I have been able to control a lot? I know people have it so much worse than me, who am I kidding... I seriously don't even have it bad at all, but still. It's just a foreign feeling, and I'm just not all that happy with it. Ughhh blabbering on about nothing.
This post will probably be very inconsistant and all over the place, but I'm scatterbrained right now. I can't stay focused at all ha. First of all I want to suggest to everyone the best stations on pandora are the Strokes, and the sleep station. Can't get enough of it. Every song that comes on reminds me of something and I don't think I've had so many memories go racing through my brain.
First of all my ALL TIME FAVORITE SONG was the very first one to come on.
Coldplay of course... Scientist
I can still remember the very first time I saw this video. I have been obsessed ever since, I seriously will NEVER get sick of this song, and yes, I have listened to it on repeat for days. It will never get old. I just love it so much, plus the video is genius.
This video is super rad too
Sia Breathe me
I can also remember the first time I had heard this, actually the first time I had paid attention to the words, the coolest part about this song is the way she sings it. She just sounds vulnerable. It's incredible.
Imagine lyrics
-John Lennon
Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
I just love this song, and everything it says. I will remake it someday.
I just love this and it makes me smile. The quote itself is beautiful.
I can't believe my CA adventure has already ended, just shy of four months. It will probably be emotional, I've made great friends, played hard, worked hard, learned so many new things about myself, and most importantly, have made myself stronger. I am so grateful to have been able to come out here. Definitely not going to complain about missing the last four months of winter:) Ha, and I don't really know exactly, but I may be back. Just maybe:) But boy do I love Utah. Can't wait to see you!
HA OH MY
I know I say that way too much, I totally came home from Swimming with the cousins and totally passed out, I woke up and have just been blogging since, I just now realized it's one in the morning ha, this entire time I was thinking I was seeing a little sunlight out the broken shutter in the window. Wow, I knew it wasn't daytime too... random. Must be even more tired than I thought.
PRESSURE
I am nervous about moving home, I know I was just on the subject and totally went off on something new, but obviously it's on my mind. I have a plan, but you never know how well things are going to work out!! God has a plan for me though, just need to have faith. Pray often, maybe I will read a church talk, that reminds me of a quote I wanted to post from my quote book!! FYI, Taylor Weiland gave me this idea, I LOVE it, I have a small notebook I record all my favorite quotes, songs, scriptures, etc.
"We get nearer to the Lord through music than perhaps through any other thing except prayer."
- President J. Reuben Clark Jr.
Isn't that great? Really, I mean, there is a reason everyone loves music so much. It is literally soooooo powerful. I have a soundtrack to my life ha, music is so important to me. Oh my and another one of my favorite songs just came on. KILL ME. Just flooded my mind with memories. I wish I could just lay in bed ALL day and listen to music. I'd give anything. I hope at my funeral, all they do is play music. I hope I don't die now that I said that.... ha. That'd be weird.
This is what just came on, I know boys hate "Edward Cullen", but Rob Pattinson is just as sexy, especially when he makes music.
The lyrics are really powerful too so I'm posting them as well.
Never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't
You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh Love
So call me by my name
And save your soul
save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done
I'll try to decide when
She'll lie in the end
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Telling you to hold off
She said hold on
It's the one thing that I've known
Once I put my coat on
And how I know it's all wrong
She's standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I'm in love
I'm in love
Girl save your soul
Save your soul
Before you're too far gone
And before nothing can be done
'Cause without me
You got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Hold on
Anyways, enough of my craziness, I will take more pictures so that this is more fun to look at. I keep forgetting. Goodnight:)
I have kind of been busy with A LOT of working, so I am behind on this post by a few days, but here it is now.
(this was written on Wednesday, it's now Saturday)
Today is a weird day. I woke up out of no where right after ten, good thing because if I hadn't have, the store would not be open and we would be in big trouble. Alana and I stayed until 5:30AM last night re-doing the visuals in the entire store. It was fun, but it sure made me tired, so it was extremely fortunate to have woken up. However, I did not go back to sleep. I couldn't, I saw some disturbing news. My friend, a dear friend Spencer Waite had passed away. Only one other time in my life has news felt like a dream. I didn't believe it. I seriously DID NOT believe it. Not until I went to his facebook page and saw loads of comments saying RIP. I talked to him a week ago, he said he was doing great and wanted to see me, we had plans to hang out when I drove through Vegas next week:( Death is so crazy. You NEVER get to talk to that person again, as long as your here on this earth. I am so grateful that I did get to talk to him before this though, it was very lucky. We hadn't talked in at least a few months. He was seriously the greatest, most genuine guy you will ever meet. My life was blessed for having known him. I love you Spencer, and will miss you so much! I'm sure you're watching all the people that loved you, pray for you and your family, and I hope you feel their love:)
I've been around death so much, what I want to do for the rest of my life surrounds me with it. It's different when you're 22 years old though. So much to live for, so much to do. So many plans, so many people to meet, so much to learn. It's ironic that it takes death to remember how to live. It's like a big slap in the face, it was weird, the first thing I did was post some lyrics to his wall, music is my answer. It's how things are best said. It just makes me want to stop being shy, stop hiding my talent, stop being afraid of what people will think, and just go for it. We have one life to live. Our ultimate purpose in life is to return to our heavenly father, and part of that is developing talents, so that's what I'm going to do. I thought about this all morning. I know Spencer is in heaven, I don't think I know one person on this planet that deserves it more than him. His honest intentions, his uplifting spirit, they've inspired me. He was obviously needed on the other side, and had fulfilled his purpose in life here:) It makes me smile to think of him with his dad there.
Okay, I'm sorry if that was depressing for some, death isn't easy, and I guess this blog has been used as therapy for me at times, but who knows, maybe something I say someday, will make an impact on someone's life. I truly am very grateful for all of my friends. I try to be the best person I can be, and sometimes I think I'm a little insensitive to people's feelings, and I hate it. I promise to try to be better. If there is ever ANYTHING anyone needs, PLEASE let me know. I love everyone, I sincerely mean that. I love my enemies and when I say I would take a bullet for someone that hated me, I mean it. I just want everyone to enjoy life, and enjoy mine. I love you all.
Anyways, I'm getting emotional once again, I thought I was done crying ha, but I guess not.
Here is what my post was originally supposed to be.
This was one of my adventures to Huntington Beach
Some New Zealand Technoish band. (I know that isn't a real word)
Some street show, I will have to upload the video I took of it, it was pretty rad. This is when he pulled me into the middle and asked me to record this trick he was going to do...
Then he laid down on the ground and started modeling, ha.
So yeah, this next week will for sure make up for my lack of blogging lately. It will be much more exciting. I am now done with work and SUPER excited to be just playing for a whole week straight. First I need to catch up with sleep:/
