Friday, July 29, 2011

I'm commited

I just had to tell someone...
I am pretty sure I've got a job...
I don't want to speak too soon...
already had my hopes up twice...
but I'm on the schedule so that's a good sign I think!!
but how exciting is that!!!??
I'm seriously doing backflips right now!!

It's in Hollady, and that's perfect because it's near enough to SLC, and also close enough to Draper/Sandy (which is where I am moving) that I can still be close to my family! Seriously all my prayers have been answered!! This is obviously the reason that I didn't get that other job. Three days is all it took! Aww I am so blessed and so grateful for this. I can't even explain!

Plus I just talked to Jentri and she goes to SLCC and works up at the hospital in Murray and she totally wants to move up there too! Now I just have to save a little bit of money. Might be hard since all my money I make will either go to bills or the gas to get me to and from work haha! I seriously don't even care. I will not eat for a month if that's what it takes. I'm just super grateful.

And to show my gratitude, I've decided I am not kissing a boy until I have been to the temple. I am dead serious about this too. I want that more than anything. I visited the Draper temple (my favorite) today for the first time since I've been home, and it just made me want it so much all over again. I don't know why I get lazy and let things that are so important to me, get put on the back burner.
I cannot even wait.

 (about the kissing I mean)

And I like this one because I really do live by it. I just love how simple it is, but it's powerful. Really, it doesn't matter what you are doing, as long as you're giving it your all, unless you're a murderer or something sketchy like that.... then you should probably not be good at it.

Anyways.... still pretty boring I know, but I was stoked and had to put it out there!

Thursday, July 28, 2011


Okay So I have not blogged in a really long time; since I've moved home. 
I have just been having TOO much fun.
It doesn't help that for some reason my MAC charger decided to stop working either. I can't even upload pictures! I borrowed Brian's when he was home, but now he is in freaking CANADA and definitely can't borrow it from him there. So I'm sorry this blogpost will be fairly boring, I didn't think people really read my blog, but there were 26 views today, and around that many each day, so I guess for the few people that do check up on me, I owe you an apology! I really do enjoy blogging, and I feel like now that things are finally settling down, I will probably be posting more often!! 

Small update:

 It's crazy when you look back at trials and they have suddenly become blessings. I have been SOOO stressed out, worrying about finding a job, almost mad that I was leaving every weekend, doing family stuff, limiting the time I had to search for a job, but now I realize there is a reason that job lead me on so long! I got to do so many of our family vacations that I've missed the past 4-5 YEARS!! 

I seriously LOVE my family.

 I'm obsessed.

 I legitimately have THEE coolest family! 

We bicker, we fight, we SCREAM and YELL, but we love each other so much. We would do anything for each other, and I can't believe how much I've missed these past few years working... so I could buy clothes... or go on vacations with friends. I feel somehow I've grown up a bit; realized that Utah is my home, where I belong. I want to stay as close to my family as possible!
 I value that so much more than I ever have! I really am so grateful for everything they do for me! 

And my friends..... Ha. I have the greatest friends ever. I smile the ENTIRE time I am with them. I don't even care who I end up hanging out with at the end of the night because I ONLY have such good ones! They kill me, they're entertaining, they're there for me, they're supportive, they're helpful, they're genuinely good people. I just can't believe how blessed I am! Really it makes me want to cry when I remember to count my blessings. I hate when I feel sorry for myself, but I am grateful that I get that way sometimes because it reminds me of what I do have. 

I mean it. 


I have some weird emotions lately, and I HATE them. I hate when I feel a certain way, and no matter how hard I try to not think about it, or forget it, I have no control over it. Just things that have happened, that I wish I could change, or people in my life that are leaving and I don't want them to leave. It's just been a roller coaster. Even more so for my mom. Sometimes I wish I had a time machine, other times I wish I could stop time completely. I guess that's what life is about though. Moving on, changing, progressing.. etc. I just haven't ever felt like so many things around me were completely out of my hands. It's all just chance now. I guess maybe I should be happy that for so much of my life, I have been able to control a lot? I know people have it so much worse than me, who am I kidding... I seriously don't even have it bad at all, but still. It's just a foreign feeling, and I'm just not all that happy with it. Ughhh blabbering on about nothing. 

Duces on that subject.

Anyways, better go get a job now.