One day at a time

This post will probably be very inconsistant and all over the place, but I'm scatterbrained right now. I can't stay focused at all ha. First of all I want to suggest to everyone the best stations on pandora are the Strokes, and the sleep station. Can't get enough of it. Every song that comes on reminds me of something and I don't think I've had so many memories go racing through my brain.

First of all my ALL TIME FAVORITE SONG was the very first one to come on. 

Coldplay of course... Scientist 

I can still remember the very first time I saw this video. I have been obsessed ever since, I seriously will NEVER get sick of this song, and yes, I have listened to it on repeat for days. It will never get old. I just love it so much, plus the video is genius. 

This video is super rad too

Sia Breathe me

I can also remember the first time I had heard this, actually the first time I had paid attention to the words, the coolest part about this song is the way she sings it. She just sounds vulnerable. It's incredible. 

Imagine lyrics

-John Lennon 

Imagine there's no Heaven 

It's easy if you try 

No hell below us 

Above us only sky 

Imagine all the people 

Living for today 

Imagine there's no countries 

It isn't hard to do 

Nothing to kill or die for 

And no religion too 

Imagine all the people 

Living life in peace 

You may say that I'm a dreamer 

But I'm not the only one 

I hope someday you'll join us 

And the world will be as one 

Imagine no possessions 

I wonder if you can 

No need for greed or hunger 

A brotherhood of man 

Imagine all the people 

Sharing all the world 

You may say that I'm a dreamer 

But I'm not the only one 

I hope someday you'll join us 

And the world will live as one 

I just love this song, and everything it says. I will remake it someday. 

I just love this and it makes me smile. The quote itself is beautiful. 

I can't believe my CA adventure has already ended, just shy of four months. It will probably be emotional, I've made great friends, played hard, worked hard, learned so many new things about myself, and most importantly, have made myself stronger. I am so grateful to have been able to come out here. Definitely not going to complain about missing the last four months of winter:) Ha, and I don't really know exactly, but I may be back. Just maybe:) But boy do I love Utah. Can't wait to see you! 

HA OH MY

I know I say that way too much, I totally came home from Swimming with the cousins and totally passed out, I woke up and have just been blogging since, I just now realized it's one in the morning ha, this entire time I was thinking I was seeing a little sunlight out the broken shutter in the window. Wow, I knew it wasn't daytime too... random. Must be even more tired than I thought. 

PRESSURE

I am nervous about moving home, I know I was just on the subject and totally went off on something new, but obviously it's on my mind. I have a plan, but you never know how well things are going to work out!! God has a plan for me though, just need to have faith. Pray often, maybe I will read a church talk, that reminds me of a quote I wanted to post from my quote book!! FYI, Taylor Weiland gave me this idea, I LOVE it, I have a small notebook I record all my favorite quotes, songs, scriptures, etc. 

"We get nearer to the Lord through music than perhaps through any other thing except prayer."

- President J. Reuben Clark Jr. Isn't that great? Really, I mean, there is a reason everyone loves music so much. It is literally soooooo powerful. I have a soundtrack to my life ha, music is so important to me. Oh my and another one of my favorite songs just came on. KILL ME. Just flooded my mind with memories. I wish I could just lay in bed ALL day and listen to music. I'd give anything. I hope at my funeral, all they do is play music. I hope I don't die now that I said that.... ha. That'd be weird.  This is what just came on, I know boys hate "Edward Cullen", but Rob Pattinson is just as sexy, especially when he makes music. The lyrics are really powerful too so I'm posting them as well.  Never think What's in your heart What's in our home So I won't You'll learn to hate me But still call me baby Oh Love So call me by my name And save your soul save your soul Before you're too far gone Before nothing can be done I'll try to decide when She'll lie in the end I ain't got no fight in me In this whole damn world Telling you to hold off She said hold on It's the one thing that I've known Once I put my coat on And how I know it's all wrong She's standing outside holding me  Saying oh please I'm in love I'm in love Girl save your soul Save your soul Before you're too far gone And before nothing can be done 'Cause without me You got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Hold on Anyways, enough of my craziness, I will take more pictures so that this is more fun to look at. I keep forgetting. Goodnight:)

Life is what you make it

I have kind of been busy with A LOT of working, so I am behind on this post by a few days, but here it is now. 

(this was written on Wednesday, it's now Saturday)

Today is a weird day. I woke up out of no where right after ten, good thing because if I hadn't have, the store would not be open and we would be in big trouble. Alana and I stayed until 5:30AM last night re-doing the visuals in the entire store. It was fun, but it sure made me tired, so it was extremely fortunate to have woken up.  However, I did not go back to sleep. I couldn't, I saw some disturbing news. My friend, a dear friend Spencer Waite had passed away. Only one other time in my life has news felt like a dream. I didn't believe it. I seriously DID NOT believe it. Not until I went to his facebook page and saw loads of comments saying RIP. I talked to him a week ago, he said he was doing great and wanted to see me, we had plans to hang out when I drove through Vegas next week:( Death is so crazy. You NEVER get to talk to that person again, as long as your here on this earth. I am so grateful that I did get to talk to him before this though, it was very lucky. We hadn't talked in at least a few months. He was seriously the greatest, most genuine guy you will ever meet. My life was blessed for having known him. I love you Spencer, and will miss you so much! I'm sure you're watching all the people that loved you, pray for you and your family, and I hope you feel their love:)

I've been around death so much, what I want to do for the rest of my life surrounds me with it. It's different when you're 22 years old though. So much to live for, so much to do. So many plans, so many people to meet, so much to learn. It's ironic that it takes death to remember how to live. It's like a big slap in the face, it was weird, the first thing I did was post some lyrics to his wall, music is my answer. It's how things are best said. It just makes me want to stop being shy, stop hiding my talent, stop being afraid of what people will think, and just go for it. We have one life to live. Our ultimate purpose in life is to return to our heavenly father, and part of that is developing talents, so that's what I'm going to do. I thought about this all morning. I know Spencer is in heaven, I don't think I know one person on this planet that deserves it more than him. His honest intentions, his uplifting spirit, they've inspired me. He was obviously needed on the other side, and had fulfilled his purpose in life here:) It makes me smile to think of him with his dad there.

Okay, I'm sorry if that was depressing for some, death isn't easy, and I guess this blog has been used as therapy for me at times, but who knows, maybe something I say someday, will make an impact on someone's life. I truly am very grateful for all of my friends. I try to be the best person I can be, and sometimes I think I'm a little insensitive to people's feelings, and I hate it. I promise to try to be better. If there is ever ANYTHING anyone needs, PLEASE let me know. I love everyone, I sincerely mean that. I love my enemies and when I say I would take a bullet for someone that hated me, I mean it. I just want everyone to enjoy life, and enjoy mine. I love you all.

Anyways, I'm getting emotional once again, I thought I was done crying ha, but I guess not.

Here is what my post was originally supposed to be.

This was one of my adventures to Huntington Beach

Some New Zealand Technoish band. (I know that isn't a real word)

Some street show, I will have to upload the video I took of it, it was pretty rad. This is when he pulled me into the middle and asked me to record this trick he was going to do...

Then he laid down on the ground and started modeling, ha.

So yeah, this next week will for sure make up for my lack of blogging lately. It will be much more exciting. I am now done with work and SUPER excited to be just playing for a whole week straight. First I need to catch up with sleep:/

DAN N ASH SINGING Haha

Okay so this is one is a little more embarrassing because it's only in sepia so you can tell it's me, but whatever haha. Maybe if people laugh at me at home, haha they won't be so surprised in person haha. Oh dear, and here is another one I found of Ash too!! She is sooo good!! Ha she is in Lake Powell so she won't even notice!!

She Sound SUPER GOOD!! I love this one:)

Oh man, YIKES

So I recorded myself singing, I didn't even dare do it without an effect. PROPS TO YOU ASH. Ha and I'm not even going to listen to it before I post it because I will probably erase it if I do that, but I have to make myself perform somehow. I will get braver I promise. And again, no critiquing. I don't even know what I'm doing. Anyways, can't wait to get home and start singing with Ash!! It will be great! Promise:)

BIG NEWS!!!!

 I am officially moving back to UTAH.

 MY HOME. 

AKA the best place on earth:) 

Oh how I've missed it!! 

See you on the 18th:)

FORGOT TO MENTION: I freakin went backstage the Glee concert with JAYMZ TUAILEVA. I SAW ALL THE GIRLS ON GLEE HA, they are all shorter than me. It was way cool. Thanks again boo!!

Next, the reese's addiction is worse than ever!! Like BAD. The other night I had 20 full size cups in about 4 hours. I'm disgusting. Today I only had six and have decided that's the perfect amount. I don't get sick... that's my problem. Most people die when they even a few haha. I have depleted the stock of king size reese's peanut butter cups at the gas station, and I'm about through the normal size. Oh my I don't want to have to drive any further to get more. 

Miss you DISNEYLAND:(

Also, I'm learning to surf in two weeks!! Yay, my friend has surfed her whole life and she is gonna come with!! I am working through Sunday next week (While Alana is going to be out of town) and then I am going to play SOOO hard the week after!! Ahh I can't wait. I miss playing. I went to the beach for the first time today, I hadn't even seen the sun in over three weeks. Ha it's the worst. The sun felt sooo good! It would definitely be so fun to just be able to play here:) So glad to have made lots of friends I can visit once I don't live here anymore. But... SLC here I come!!

Anyway, blah blah blah ha 

Here are some pics 

Alana's a dork

There is Tyler, he and two friends came over to say hi. They just laid on our floor and ate our old Del taco haha. 

And here is our friend the Ginger Giant... hahahahaha

Then Alana and I went and met up with Kristy and Colbie to see a movie ha. 

She wanted a picture of her jumping haha, she tried. Kind of a fail.

This one is kind of cool ha, just cuz her sweater is up in the air. 

HAHAHA we all got SUPER ready to go out. As you can see:)

Colbie was super excited to get her picture taken ha... NOT 

While Kristy actually wanted hers taken haha. Good thing she looks wayy good even without make up. 

SLUT

I FINALLY MADE IT BACK TO THE BEACH HA

I LOVE Huntington beach:)

There was some event being put together right next to me ha. I kept having to move, well I kept moving.

Apparently body surfing?? Or body boarding, I guess they are two very different things, but I don't know the difference:) Ha 

Also I'm obsessed with the MUSE once again... Ugh I get so obsessed with music it's crazy. Also I am practicing the guitar again finally ha, I even have a makeshift pic because I didn't bring any back with me from Utah:) Soon enough I will be making music for ya'll. Can't wait to be home so I can sing with muh seesters:) Anyways, take care.