Okay, so I just wrote a whole blogpost and felt like I got too specific and if certain people read it, they would know it was about them, so I erased it ha.
Basically it came down to this...
Be mature people.
Maturity is not boring.
I doubt Steve Jobs life was immature, and not boring.
Eff drugs
Don't settle
Don't start fights.
Make peace, not war.
Contention is of the devil.
Instead of pissing someone off, kill them with kindness... I promise it works;)
Stupid blogpost I know... almost a waste, but it's what I needed.
To get some things off my mind.
Now this week will be amazing.
Wiz, Hella Jazz game, Kony, and another three day weekend... a warm one:)
ANNNYYYYWAAYYYYS, Night all.
I will post something tomorrow that actually makes sense and is more thought out.
I feel like once I start this blogpost, I will never stop.
I'm crazy right now.
I don't even know what I'm thinking VS. what I'm feeling.
I can't tell if these sickening anxious feelings are action induced, or just wayyyy too much diet coke all the time. Guess I'll never know until I quit... so long diet coke.
I'm still here, I still feel.
I feel a lot, so much in fact that sometimes I want to curl up into a ball pretty much anywhere and go to sleep because it's the only time I'm numb to it all. I wouldn't say I'm depressed, I don't think negatively at all, I just am scared I guess? I don't really know how to define what I'm feeling.
This probably isn't very informative to most, and I want it to be vague. It's not meant to be understood by all. It's actually very private, but a way I can maybe put it in words, and feel some sort of peace
Day 1:
I'm great, so many ideas, extremely positive, and ready to take on the world
Day 2:
Figuring out how I'm going to accomplish all the things that have been running through my mind, no one can bring me down, I'm still on top of the world.
Day 3:
Things remind me. Kind of stop me in my tracks. Take me back a little bit.
Day 4:
Everything reminds me. No thinking of anything else. Full focus of my mind, my soul, my energy.
Day 5:
Numb. Deaf. Blind. Non-existent
Day 6:
Notice the sun, notice the people, notice the care, the smiles, the warmth
Day 7:
Remember God, remember Heavenly father, remember that filter 'of everything happens for a reason', and remember I have plenty to smile about:)
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS PEOPLE
Life isn't so bad. God is the most powerful filter there is.
God has three answers to your prayers:
1. Yes
2. Not yet
3. I have something better in mind
Seriously god is always there, he is ALWAYS there to pick you up, I feel so ashamed that I forget this every time until I need something. I've had one really good year where I made him the focus of my life, and nothing has EVER compared. There was a constant understanding that there was a plan for me. That I am here for a reason. I am a daughter of god, and I need to share that with people. Our entire existence is only so we can return to him.
I will someday, and I plan to make him proud.
PS: when I started this blog post I had no intentions of it going in the direction it just did, but I am extremely happy about it. I actually had a whole lot of stuff to complain about, and now I don't:) Blessings in disguise!
Also, Ashli and I have recorded a video. We look weird, but it's another step in the right direction:)
I know... so much for blogging more often, but I am uploading another video of my singing. I have not really been keeping up with my goals... but I'm trying:/ Hope you enjoy anyways. Sorry it's such a rough recording.
I know I said I wasn't confused, but now I just have a feeling of confusion. Maybe it's anxiety? Jealousy? I don't know what's changed in 48 hours, but it's been a complete 180. Where to even begin? Well first of all.... what is the big deal about new years eve and new years? Yeah I get that's it's pretty cool that we are now living a year that we will never live again, but really Mcdonalds? You have to be closed both days? You are seriously killing me! I NEED my Diet Coke, and have now driven to you twice, and been completely disappointed. Ugh. Also, sleep... is not my friend. Sleeping and not sleeping is literally destroying my brain. I feel like I can't focus, I don't want to do anything, I'm not really motivated. I guess I can not deprive my brain of rest anymore... you win, Brain. Geez. New year's was flipping cold until the hotel, which now owns my new glasses, and my other sandal. I didn't want to wake anyone up in the other room so I just left it thinking someone would grab it, buuuuttt uhhh, it doesn't seem like anybody did. Guess I need to call the hotel dang it. I miss how things were a month ago. I would never have guesseed things could change this quickly, which is weird, because I've been there done that like 1,000 times. It's just been a while, and I didn't really make them happen, they just did, so it's taking some getting used to. I'm moving home... my car is still packed full of my stuff... I NEED to empty my car, but I have no energy to do so. I absolutely HAVE to because I need to pick up all the rest that is at my house before they charge me another month's rent. Hopefully Todd is just cool with it. Dev got engaged... finally ha. Congrats. I went to a New Year's Eve party for about 5 minutes that had 6 married couples... all my friend's that have married Scott's friends. It is rrreeeaaaallllyyy weird to see. Poor Steve was ridin' solo ha. Yeah this probably isn't making a lot of sense and isn't in any sort of order, but it's the things that are on my mind, hopefully if I put them here, they will stay here. Seriously though, my body needs a Mcdonald's diet coke. My stomach hurts. So ornery. For those of you that think I never getting frustrated... this is me frustrated right now. I just feel like I don't even know what to do. Better just do service or be productive. If any one knows of any service that someone needs, or something they themselves are in need of, please tell. I will be selfishly unselfish and help you so it helps me!! Another thing.... my family's dog is afraid of fireworks, so for the past two days she was been shaking non-stop and she will not leave my side... it's rather annoying. Anyways I guess I better end things on a lighter note so you don't all hate me the next time you see me!! My voice is pretty scratchy, (losing it once again) but here is a little something I recorded. My favorite song, is seemed more than appropriate:) It's a bit more upbeat than normal ha.
Got talked into blogging once again ha, I always forget about it. I'm driven this time though, I have soooo many goals. I'm in love with reaching them, if that makes any sense. I am so excited for 2012 it's ridiculous.
SO A FEW THINGS
1. I am moving back home in the next three days (Yes, I was only gone almost 3 months) 2. I am going to start selling pre-season for Vivint 3. GUESS WHAT I GOT FOR CHRISTMAS?!! Ha, everyone already knows 4. Guess what else I got?? A MICROPHONE!! Now we can make music! YAY 5. I will soon find out where I will be living this summer, hopefully making a little bit of extra money 6. I want a new car, that is a brand new goal as of today, my car was struggling back from St. George 7. Once I get back... I am either moving to New York, or France ha, haven't really decided yet!
CRAZY I KNOW
Who do I think I am??
I am Danyel F-n Snow
I can do whatever I want, and no one will stop me:)
I am seriously so excited, and I noticed something the other day that I had never really paid attention to.
People, telling their success stories, always talk about how people told them they would never amount to anything, or that their ideas were crazy, and then they took that and proved them wrong! Well I never have anyone telling me I can't do something, in fact, I have the opposite! If the whole world thinks I can do something... what in the hell am I doing telling myself I can't?? Geez.... I am done being afraid, or thinking something is too hard, is too far away, or out of reach. Seriously I have the whole world in my hands, and I need to take advantage of that!! Anyways, pretty much everyone should come to this realization, because it's incredible. So plan on hearing from me a lot more often!!
“Life’s tragedy is that we get old too soon and wise too late.”
- Benjamin Franklin
Yes, it's true. We do. Smart and wise are two very different things. I am honestly blessed to have been surrounded by very wise people for many years of my life now. I now have worked as a CNA at an alzheimer's unit for three months. It's the absolute worst disease in the world. You have your health and strength... but you can't, no matter how hard you try, control it. Can you imagine not being able to express yourself? No wonder they are agitated all the time; plus the simplest things you and I do everyday every second, are a struggle for them. It's rough. The poor things could be abused, neglected, or hurt, and you would never know it. It knows no age either, it can happen to anyone. We have a 58 year old:(
The most genuine compliment you will ever get, is one from an alzheimer's sufferer.
I don't know why I just went off on that, probably because it's all I do anymore ha. I love it though. Never a dull moment. It's a blessing to be able to work doing something that actually makes a difference, whether people know it or not. It's the most satisfying job. Guess I just wanted to show a little gratitude.
Well I know I always say this, but it has been a long time since I've blogged again. I work so much, and then I sleep when I get home because I crash from all the energy drinks I drink everyday.
I GOTTA QUIT THAT
Good news is, someone inspired me. I don't even remember what it actually said, but something Jordan Brown posted on his pinterest said something about how being succesful has to do with how hard you are willing to work.... I know we've heard quotes like this all the time, but then I thought about how good Jordan really is at what he does. He really does work wayyyy hard. So I've tried to apply this to a few things I want to do. Yes I want to build assisted living homes and I want to build a reception, but everyone knows I want to sing. The thing is I don't have any way to make music. So I FORCED myself to practice the one song on the guitar all the time... and I can pretty much play it without looking now! Oh and that makes learning more... WAY more exciting now. I'm dying. I'm actually gonna make this happen. Mikayla is in... Ashli might just be a little too sarcastic and doubting, but hopefully she will see the vision soon!! I've got a goal to actually write, sing, record a song by the end of this month... and it might happen! Really I would rather do this than anything else in the ENTIRE world.
FYI I just started tweeting ha. DORK I know, well actually the world thinks that's pretty cool, kind of dorky that it took me this long to start though. Apparently at one time I started a tumblr too, ha and now I am updating my blog. WHOA I'm on one ha. Gotta connect with people somehow right? Why not ten different ways ha. LOVE IT.
LOVE THESE, Thank you PINTEREST:)
Just watch;)
SIEZE THE HELL OUT OF TODAY, why not?
Wish I remembered to do this everyday, it changes your perspective on everything
